Down 7 pounds. Half ass counting calories and half ass working out. Slowly getting it together.

This is a visual aid I created today. It has 127 numbered boxes on it. Each box represents the number of pounds I have to lose. Once I lose a pound, I get to put a big ole x in that box. Its hangs on the wall next to the treadmill so I can see it every time I work out.

Why

He makes me laugh. He makes me smile. He makes my heart beat faster just by looking at him. He lies.He cheats. He demeans me. He has left me to raise our daughter by myself. But I still love him. What does that say about me as a person that I can and do love someone who has hurt me so much .......

I am down half a pound and I am so upset.s I would have already been down 2-3 pounds during my previous weight loss efforts. I knew it would be harder to lose weight but I am not losing any. I am working out and staying within my allotted calories.I'm so mad, ugh !!!!

The empty jar represents the weight I haven't lost yet. The jar with the stones contains 123 stones which represents the number of pounds I need to lose. Every time I lose a pound, I will take one stone and move it over to the empty jar. I would love to have at least 50 stones in the empty jar within the next 6 months.

2013

My one wish for 2013 is to simply be happy.

Dreams

I created a dream board and I haven't looked at it in a long time. I am transitioning my hair and that is on the board and so is getting healthy. Here's hoping I accomplish everything else.